I've always been a procrastinator. Deadlines don't scare me until my nose is against one. The fear of failure finally kicks in, and I'm off and running. This is how I was in school. How I am at work. And how I feel now with my marathon training.
I have five weeks before the Akron Marathon. This week and next week are the final mileage buildups before I taper. These runs are crucial. After a couple weeks of ho-hum, my ears hear the ominous sound of dum-dee-dum-dum.
I'm starting to get the fear. I can't miss a beat, or my four-hour marathon will be lost. And maybe it's just because the school year is starting back up again, but I feel like I'm cramming for a big test. I haven't even signed up for the race yet! What am I waiting for?
Ever have those dreams where you forget your locker combination? Are there equivalent dreams for runners? Will I forget how to tie my shoes? Or show up the race naked and have to pin the bib over my privates? Or make a wrong turn and get DQ'd despite a BQ? Or mistakenly arrive drunk?
Is this Pre-taper Mindfuck Syndrome?