The feeling is similar to the one I'd get in college when an essay was due the next day and I hadn't started writing yet. Here we are, 14 weeks from the Akron Marathon without a run over eight miles or a week with more than 17 miles, and all efforts to kickstart my running have misfired. The days pass by.
All aboard the panic train!
I'm one of those people who says he works better under pressure. The truth is that pressure only gives me a better ability to shut out distractions when I work. The actual quality of the work is subject to debate.
Yesterday, I went through and tried to revise my training plan to something more reasonable, and probably devised something more ludicrous.
It's time to deactivate the early morning alarm because there's no chance in hell that I'm getting up to run before work any time soon.
I promised myself I wouldn't buy any shoes this year, but I keep thinking, "Maybe a new pair of shoes will make me want to run more!" Thankfully, the cheapskate in me reminds me that the maximum price for minimal shoes is fucking absurd.
It's time for something drastic, something that works. It's time for a paradigm shift.
Why am I doing this? Nobody wants to read a mope-fest. You want entertainment. You want action and humor. You want flash and sizzle. You want unnecessary exclamation points to show just how excited I am to be on this journey and sharing it with you on the World Wide Web! You want long sentences. You want me to finish this paragraph and get to the point. That's why I'm getting off the panic train right here.
We all know that the panic train makes a lot of noise, but never actually leaves the station. I'm going to take some advice from Douglas Adams' The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy series: "Don't Panic."
What happens if I don't train enough? I spend $110 for two races that I don't do as well as have done in the past. However, the amount I'm running now is making me unhappy.
So what's the happy medium? Pretty simple. Let go of expectations and run more.
This is big year in my life. I don't need to add the stress of training for a PR on top of preparing for the wedding, increased responsibilities at work, paying down debt, saving money, playing the banjo and still trying to have an active social life.
I want to run the Akron Marathon because I love the atmosphere and it will be my fifth year in a row, which gives me some special perks in future races. I want to run the Buckeye Half because it's my favorite race and I want the sweatshirt. Plus, there's a discount for registering for both races.
Yes, I really want to PR both races, but I have to accept that my dedication isn't where it needs to be for that to be a reasonable goal this year. Besides, no matter what, I can call my marathon result a "Married PR."